Running!

My day started a little rough,I think.I went for an early run and it didn't go as planned.I couldn't run because of my nose.If the weather changes and it's windy,you have a big problem with that.I changed my mood immediately into anger and the fact that I couldn't do what I pushed myself to accomplish, killed me.
I already have hard times into making me get back my ambition and then you get this.But the anger disappeared after 5 minutes and I was walking,a faster walk.That also good instead of running.Now I know for sure that I am a night person.I prefer to run in the evening and my body agrees with that too.
You can find motivation everywhere around you,you just need to look for it.There is a moment where,for example,you are jealous of a girl you see on the street or magazine and then it hits you.That you can do it too.I discovered that I actually enjoy pushing myself and It makes me feel better.
I don't focus on the result ,but more on the journey and the facts are more important for your mind.Little steps can take you far.
Sometimes it's hard for me to put my thoughts in order or on paper.I think of so many things in such short amount of time that I don't know the first idea of that thought.You can get lost in there and you find the exit ,but then you loose the connection ,totally.I've created this blog so I can extract them ,one by one,and organise it here.It's not as easy as I thought it would be.
I don't know me completely,I guess.I sometimes feel that I think as a man sometimes as what I'm supposed to be,A WOMAN.I'm not questioning my sexuality,It's just about the way I think.
I red an article long time ago about the balanced mind at a human being.It was really interesting and it captivated my attention.I search for that balance too and I needed more information.It said that an individual can be balanced if they think as their gender and half as the other one.There are huge differences between women and men,but there are cases of having both and being normal.Or is that overrated?
People always put labels and stickers on every ones forehead and It changed our mentality a lot in the course of the years.It's about marketing and publicity and that's how people perceive themselves now.As what they're given.
Going back to the Idea I started,I am a woman.Our minds are a solution,a chemical reaction of all that makes you who you are.All the abilities,the parts of your personality,make the whole You.This is me.My ambition,my anger,my persuasion,my ability to get up and fight again,my endless power of keeping hope around me.The amount thrown in that bowl is exactly the result of Me as Individual.So are you and every single person on this planet.That's one of the tiny and enormous difference between us.
My molecules speak for me.